hi i'm back, been nua-ing again &again &again &again. don't even know how to describe how nua ive been feeling since school ended may 14th. well unfortunately, school's starting next week and my timetable is actually 3 days long but trust me i'm gonna squeeze it somehow into two days plus preferably keep my mondays and fridays free.
been reading some random people's blogs, particularly those whom i know complains hell alot about their relationships when they're quarrelling hahahahaha. mean i know but it's just amusing for me, not that my bf&i don't fight, but shouldn't such things be kept private? as in it's either that or thr will be people reading and judging you guys (ahem, me.) thn again, if people don't blog about it i wouldnt be getting my laughs. HOMAIGAWD i sound like a complete bitch. but honestly, if you dint want people to read about it thn dont post or at least keep it private lei...........
k the previous paragraph made zero sense but whatever.
siaaaaaaan, missing my second chance to celebrate my second anni w bf cos he's gotta go to australia for an exercise. first being he was in tekong. anyway guess we'll just celebrate early in october. afterall its hari raya again!!
back again because ive got particular viewpoints i wanted to write about after seeing what's been occurring around me.
why do most of our generation treat relationship statuses so lightly? at least its what i noticed for a substantial amount of couples these days. they break &patch; break &patch for a couple of times before they eventually decide to break it off for good. i don't see whats the good in that honestly. sure you're bound to have occasional spats at each other, sometimes one party takes the other for granted, but isn't being in a relationship committing to your other half, putting in a combined effort to make sure that things work out? if you decide to give up at one point or another, it only shows how lightly you treat your emotions don't you? or so that's what i think.
what's more ridiculous to me is when a couple breaks up &thn patches back they continue their so-called "how long have you been together" thing. for example you stay apart from one another for a month or so and then when they've cooled it off they pretend nothing happened and the period they've been together just continues adding up. but how's that possible? if you've loved each other that much a month spent "cooling it off" is completely redundant don't you think?
when i see couples our age doing this break/patch crap i just get so frustrated, it only shows how immature people our age are acting. relationships are not child's play. you don't just break somebody's heart, say sorry and then go back to pretending that you guys are perfect together. you give up trying to accomodate the other by choosing to stay apart but i honestly doubt that that's how relationships work. take it a step further, marriage. you don't just decide i want a divorce for now and then think about marrying the same person back again. that's complete utter bullshit. yes you may say relationships are different from marriages, but think again. why do we commit ourselves to relationships. i'd safely say for a hope of the right partner to lead the rest of your lives with. but IF we already act this way with relationships now, what's to say we will not do so for our future marriages?
i mean, when you give up at any point of time it's clear that you'll sought it out as a refuge in the future. because it's a trend. couples that have broken up once, somehow or another, always ends up doing so again and again. it's not a solution to arguments and disagreements, it's a runaway route from having to go through the pain of yelling at each other, of crying, of having to face the inevitable.
truthfully, if i have to ever choose a runaway route for my relationships, i'd rather not have started one at all. we should NEVER treat relationships lightly, at least not for me.
Monday, July 15, 2013
so ive been away for exactly two months.......... too lazy to blog. so toodles
although its pretty early in comparison to other Year 2&3's from my school, i still can't stress how awesome it feels to not have to wake up at 8am chiong down to Starbucks to study &home only for dinner. &yes, all alone. I've got a habit of studying alone ever since Secondary school for O's. (That's how i even came to know my library friends but that's a different story altogether) & this year it's the same. Just me&my books for these couple of weeks/months.
Even during my weekends i'll feel inclined to study, at least take out my notes for a couple of hours or i'll be immensely pressured with guilt. especially starting from the month before papers actually commence. so.... my darling boy ends up spending his bookouts for the weekends sitting next to me &watching me study hehee. Not bragging here but i'm seriously seriously thankful for that, because even after his 16+24k route march&only 3hours of sleep he joined me immediately after at Starbucks. Most people would probably be dying from the immense fatigue so i'm seriously and deeply touched keke.
Thank you so much my love, you have no idea how much strength i gather from the simple presence of you just sitting by me :-*
&since my papers are now over.............. TIME TO CATCH UP ON SO MUCH THINGS IVE BEEN MISSING OUT. toodles.
sigh the moment where you're just too sian to study & you wanna just quit your degree &pursue a career in wherever you think will have a place for you.......
couple of years back when I was studying for A's I rmb having weekly consultations w my physics tutor (I forgot what's his name I only rmb referring to him as mian bao chao ren), he asked @allsmilesfchh and I this question.
'have you all ever studied up till the point where you feel like you don't know what you're studying for? like thrs no point in you studying anymore?'
he thn carried on w:
'that's when you've started to give yourself excuses for not studying.'
no idea why this particular statement of his stayed w me from than till now, but I guess it's probably because it made alot of sense to be back than, &also now. guess I rly need to hang in thr for these couple of weeks.... sian I still got one more yr to this degree lei pangsai...... (not like im the only one but just ranting)
today marks the 17th month i've been w my boy muah:-*
haven't been at this space for a couple of weeks because i just dint feel like blogging again. ohwells. or should i say because exams are nearing hahahhaa listen to me. but yes been spending almost all my time @ Starbucks for my books &me. I honestly think i have had more milk intake this past weeks of studying than my whole life added up tgt (fyi, i'm supposedly lactose intolerant from young but amazingly my tolerance threshold kinda gets upgraded the older i get.)
&anyway since i've always been into kpop i found kpop star to be extremely intriguing. My favourites being YouU; ShinJiHoon &Raccoon Boys. So here's a little something for to share w you guys. You don't have to worry about not understanding them cos they're all English songs that they're performing in this particular instances. &here they are, collaboration stages between the Season 1&2 finalists. particularly loving these 3 stages.
warning: because im blogging w my phone, again. the photos are at the bottom and in a super disorderly manner but owells can't be bothered.
headed to Adventure Cove and Sea Aquarium ytd w my love:) we bought deals of bigdealsdotcom so we saved A LITTLE on this trip? hahaa. we both got up bright &early, 730am for me. it's been so long since I woke this early...... especially since lessons have kinda stopped for awhile. anyway yea but that's cos we had a schedule to follow!
collected tix had breakfast @ macs &went to adventure cove! I shan't say what we did thr because what else can we do at a water park besides play right? but rly one major regret which I have, not visiting the rainbow reef... OTL. im gonna visit the cove again because DIE ALSO MUST TRY DAMNIT. I wanna snorkel w fishes:(( the boy said he can bring me to an island to do so since he's done it before, but the point is HOW COULD I HAVE MISSED THAT OPPORTUNITY!?!?!hahahaa.
after Adventure Cove we headed to the Sea Aquarium. I, for one, am not someone that particularly fancies visiting such places, as in I don't think it's THAT intriguing. but rly this jellyfish photo below I have. SO DAMN GORGEOUS. luminous creatures bloop-ing around in the tank, damn pretty can!?!?
& thr was this board w a dolphin named ruirui so I made my own version of ruirui take a photo w it hehee.
dined afterthat at fish&crab shack. not too bad I guess?
&MY FAVOURITE: THE HOT PINK BEAR I COULDN'T KEEP MY HANDS OFF AT CANDYLICIOUS ت
if you don't know me already, im a v practical person. I don't like my other half to spend on flowers or anything impractical on me. flowers, for example. sure i'll be happy feeling all fuzzywuzzy when I receive a bouquet of them, &I'll probably dry them to keep it. but what am I supposed to do w them afterthat? it'll just sit around &look dried..... @ least to me. so yes my boy doesn't buy flowers for me.
BUT. im a sucker for soft toys, BIG cuddly ones in fact. I contemplated so long before I allowed @WeeHongRui to purchase the bear LOL. this one attracted me so much because. OMG IT'S HOT PINK, HOT FUCKING PINK. HOW MANY PINK BEARS DO YOU FIND AROUND TOWN THAT LOOKS SO PRETTY OKAY. (plus it's soshi's colour hahahahahahahaa) therefore, I landed up w T.J here ^^
we walked about vivo awhile more before heading home. damn we were too tired from the days activities.
&today we spent another day tgt ~.~
waiting for Friday so that we have yet another weekend once more.
a couple of months back my sister asked me what does dating mean to you?
I told her the current meaning of dating which most youngsters nowadays have. it's some sort of no strings attached?? you don't belong to one another but you have feelings for one another. you don't have a say in the other's everyday lives but you'll spend your days together as if you belong in the other's life. that's the current perception which most youngsters hold nowadays.
personally, I think people that believe in this 'dating to see if we suit each other thing' are just finding excuses. an excuse for people whom can't commit to relationships, because you guys are not officially together, which means you can just carry on leading the life of someone single and yet have a 'gf/bf'. what makes it even more ridiculous is when the dating phase is over and they officially enter a relationship, they'd say 'oh we were tgt since blahblahblah (the date they started dating.)' isn't it ironic??
I just think the whole concept of dating is an excuse for people whom are not rdy to commit. isn't it somewhat equivalent to using another to satisfy their own emotions?
okay no idea why I got started on this topic lol. but rly I just don't agree w why people would want to engage in dating. if you want to love someone, thn commit yourself to the other half. relationships are not some child's play.
was browsing through the notes I used to do on fb during j1. yea that period doing notes w questionnaires were like one of the most 'in' things lolol. & I acty did around 60 over notes, God knows where I found all the time to do them and still did okay for my exams. j2 was when I started to fuck up, but that had a whole different reason to it. or rather reasons. k side tracked. but yea read some of them and thr was this particular question that caught my attention.
Q: What is more important in a relationship, trust or happiness?
A: Trust, because w trust comes happiness.
I actually dint even know that I wrote something like that before lol. I felt this huge tone of approval in my head to that question when I read it cos wow. right now right now I've actually rly felt and understood what 'w trust comes happiness means. I can cross my heart and swear to the heavens that I trust my boy more thn anything in the world, &he trusts me too, which is probably why the two of us are so damn inseparable.
I found that I was able to trust him more easily thn anybody I've acty been w or am associated w. he gives me nothing to doubt about, entirely. I call this what I never thought I was able to give my other half, 'implicit trust'.
Just felt like posting about this because indeed im so happy right now probably boiling down to how much we trust each other. &im so thankful for these past 16months we've been together. I don't see an end to us, because we were always meant to be forever.
k that aside, this photo below. drew by his 7year old little cousin. it's like he's got this budding artistic talent in him lol. isn't it cute?
downloaded the blogger app into my note so now I can update even without the comp, but that would also mean my photos will be v v v disorganized.
prelims are over, finals are upcoming before another 4months break and onto my final year for uni. it's scary how when we were younger we always said we wanted to grow up quickly but when we've grown older, we kinda want time to stop passing by so quickly. nowadays we look back on the time we've spent, and indeed like how everybody says, your secondary school times are always the best.
my times in AHS rly had many ups, and downs. the latter being the lesser of both. but rly I've met so many people thr, gained so much and also learnt so much.
thn again, I'm very pretty much pleased w my life now, so i'd keep it the way it is too.
no idea what this post has in stall but just blogging some random stuff.
been too lazy to blog these couple of weeks, simply cos i just dint feel like it meh... ~.~ so yup if ive been gone for a long hiatus &you'd like to know whether i'm still alive+kicking. @yaoaudrey on twitter &instagram would be a good idea :}
so here's a couple of quick updates for what happened these weeks i was gone. cant rmb all so just by judging from what i can get out of my brain....
Christmas countdown w the library Gang.
Once again, i spent my new year countdown w the library peeps ~.~ It has been a yearly affair since we got to know each other, me studying for my O's and them studying for their A's at the library. Some of my friends totally dont expect us to still be close or even hang out w one another after we crossed that phase of studying together, but yup we're still close. &we've acty grown in size because individually we all found our other halves etc.
A very huge thanks to @seahchingying &her parents for providing this opportunity to countdown at Laguna Country Club every year ^.^
Another upcoming huge event would be Chinese New Year ~.~ hehee. My preparations for this year are done one week beforehand! Dip-dyed my hair a pinkish-purple colour, although I REALLY REALLY REALLY wanted to do it like Yuri's in her I Got A Boy performances lol. Think i'll end up being a little too wild looking though, so this is it below :) It looks a little too pink here but rly it's slightly more purple! oh and for my main colour i re-dyed to be a dark purple that looks like black unless under strong sunlight.
Another essential for important occasions for females would be our nails hehehe. Did gellish for the first time, previously thought it was too troublesome to soak off that's why i havent did it before, but since i did my nails a little too early this time, the only way to ensure it remains this way would be gellish. Look @ my paddle pop nails ^.^ hehehe.
okay &for K-pop upcoming.......... If you're not interested thn please do not read on. Anyway, I GOT A BOY WAS OUT FOR A MONTH WOOHOOOOO. alright on the first listen, you'd probably think the song sucks cos it's all distorted &it sounds like a mash-up of 3-4 songs altogether, but rly, IGAB is way deeper thn that. every change in beat, every dance move has a reason behind it. In fact, after you listen to it a couple of times it's scarily addictive especially the chorus.
Here's one of their live performances, inserting one of the clips which Yuri's hair is so prominent and pretty ~.~
