im disappointed in myself.
i dont know why, i just feel like im not even a kid anymore.
laden by things that are happening around so much, i cant believe im changed.
its just ridiculous that i just suddenly feel so anti.
im sorry to vagdaks & especially so to debra.
i know i said that i dint want to go for lunch that day.
i flared up for no reason.
just let me be alone i guess.

& i know i probably broke your heart somehow.
but its just, no more, not anymore.
im glad you asked at least.
or i dont know how i would have to tell you soon.


i dont know what else is there for me to blog.
so i guess bye.