oh right, i wanted to update then i realised my life's boring nowsadays so thr's no update afterall.
except... there's the 2.4 run tomorrow O.O damned, i'm becoming sucha boring person with a boring life and a boring personality plus a boring timetable WHICH I APPARENTLY CANT KEEP UP TO AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

oh my, what an interesting life i lead.
bye :)

So much for studying :O seems like thr aint much progress,lol. I'm lagging behind the schedule i planned for myself but i don't seem to be catching up on it despite so. [obvious since im using the bloody computer every weekend] Screw myself rawrrr.

Anw, just a couple of belated birthday wishes :]

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY OMG 4YEAR LONG FRIEND IN AHS SAME CLIQUE SAME CCA SAME SQUAD SAME COMMITTEE SAME CLASS SAME EVERYTHING DEBRAPEH!!!!!!!!!
though its really kind of late, but better late then never heh :) Hope you liked the love lee cd that hot stuffz brought to you girl! :D

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO BOB ESMOND![fair enough?-.- &im writing it big here on purpose to let everyone know you asked to enlarge your name.]
hope you enjoyed your birthday to the millions of little bits &pieces available. &okay la, the letter was KIND OF TOUCHING :) happeeeeeeeeeeburpdaeeeeeeeeeanywayyyyyy.

HAPPY BELATED TO CLAUDIALIM JUNIOR!
its kind of funny cos i dint even wish you but here it is on my blog but still happy thirteenth! hope you love gb more&more&more&more&more lol :D

alright, NO MORE POST. byebye.

STUDY

hiatus.

i shouldnt be here posting, but here i am.

studying tomorrow yet again, so goodbye :]

been locking myself away from the computer once more, seems like i'm running behind the schedule ive planned for myself, or rather i can't seem to follow what i've planned,lol. better start following to the slacky timetable ive made for myself :]

nothing much happening in school nowsadays i guess, so days are really passing by normally &stuffs.

its 11.30pm, tomorrow's a Friday, meaning.... TEPPANYAKI AT SHEENA'S WITH VAGDAKS :D :D :D Finally the long-awaited day aye dp.

&an early birthday to my ex dear, jane! :) She threw me aside for her dar-.- its early here cos don't think i'll be using the comp much as well, need to catch up on my schedule soon [: toodles! (a no-coloured post)

i question myself if such an action proves that i have really failed in my task. Though i knew the ending was to be so, i never knew it pained my heart so much. It was afterall my pride, my passion, my joy.

i think im getting more&more bored,lol. cos im changing my skin repeatedly. Seems like i'll change this one away soon? :)

&i like this song though it was introduced to me damn long ago without me really liking it hahaha. the more i listen the more i like it so yup :] &i still think debz_palz, "eh teach me lei." on Friday was really amusing LoL.

nothing much to update &i think i have to start revising soon. Seems like i'm missing the library seats so i guess i'll have a nice little cosy gathering with them tomorrow :> Though i don't have my books with me >:( so i guess i'll have to make do with the notes.

&a picture from Friday.


goodbye ;D

just a short post because even though my results were not much better at least i enjoyed myself at night :]

School was really shocking&face-losing. [i don't know how else to put it,lol] Even though the results i first received was really bad, like super bad, i dint feel anything. I think i have really reached the ultimate level now, total numbness, darned. The following ones ain't so bad i guess, but darned, those are the ones i dint really study-.-

&hey meimei, cheer up yo ;D our L1R5 shall shoot up into the planets together :)

Shopping trip after school at vivo's with Kerensa, Grace, Debra&Sheena :D &i had a really hard time making my choice between 2 clothes. (&guess what, i think i have a SLIGHT TINGE of regret now o.O) Dined at Mache's but some paikia say we are like eating in kfc lol.

Carried on walking around another while till 9 before all of us were slowly spacing out,lol. &here i am blogging. Sad thing: distributing of pamphlets tomorrow at 8am D:

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I really felt very like an explosive at that moment of time. I did not want to see the efforts we all put in to just go down to the drains. &yet, what i'm seeing right now is proving what we're all fearing. That sudden ourburst of feelings was filled with disappointment &anger. As far as i'm concerned, i guess that our efforts are all coming to a naught.

bye :) Sleep is very much required right now.

i dont know whats wrong with me. Issit because im purely stupid or what? I'm just suddenly so tired i dont know why. I know i shouldn't be giving up, i shouldn't be feeling this way. But.. what else more can i do? That everyday routine i was so used to, that daily habit of waking up early. Suddenly, it just seems like nothing more than a mere memory that will never pay off, im just disgusted at the reality of this world.

I'm forced to live this life because of the way the whole world revolves, &yet when i start to get into the state of things, it never works out. &this feeling really sucks. That crashing moment of knowing the result was really heartaching, i was really really really speechless, mind blanked out, &suddenly, my emotions all started coming in.

The continuous effort that doesn't pay off, i'm really very disheartened. It did not happen just once that brought me to this current state of total numbness. The next round, everything just dropped dead on me &i dint even care anymore. Ive disappointed many &i don't think i can ever give them the chance to be proud again.

For now, i guess. Life sucks.Thanks steady for that message though(:

edited/} i dont know why, i suddenly have that urge to stop talking. &some are saying i seem easily irritable nowsdays. i guess, maybe they are right, i am.
everytime i think about it, i feel like crying, but what more can i do but blame myself.

alright, i don't really have the mood now, in fact i feel like closing down my whole blog lol. I'm tired&exhausted, drained out&fed up. Reasons are too many to mention &im feeling really mixed up now. I'm annoyed at the fact that thr's school tomorrow. &im even more irritated that i have to start studying soon. SCREW AHS.

Stupid system of not allowing us any rest at all, even if it is, its just 2 days or slightly more, how much do you think thats enough for us. but ohwells, forget it.

Out today with the rest watching Get Smart. It was really good because i was able to laugh properly even though our humour was really kinda erms....
Particular point of time: the whole cinema consisted only of the 5 of our laughter &we were kinda shocked cos we thought the joke was rather funny, damned. Only goes to show that we are really deproving in our humour.

&i hope i can really get back into my mood of studying after this short break, because i really am afraid that once i stop, everything's gone.

i hate tomorrow, dislike tomorrow, abhore tomorrow & detest tomorrow.
I don't wanna face reality D:

Alright, im of to sleep, at least i posted (: bye.