I'm forced to live this life because of the way the whole world revolves, &yet when i start to get into the state of things, it never works out. &this feeling really sucks. That crashing moment of knowing the result was really heartaching, i was really really really speechless, mind blanked out, &suddenly, my emotions all started coming in.
The continuous effort that doesn't pay off, i'm really very disheartened. It did not happen just once that brought me to this current state of total numbness. The next round, everything just dropped dead on me &i dint even care anymore. Ive disappointed many &i don't think i can ever give them the chance to be proud again.
For now, i guess. Life sucks.
everytime i think about it, i feel like crying, but what more can i do but blame myself.
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