gahh, i just wasted an hour attempting to replace my current blogskin with another. But the latter's so disgusting, i reverted back to the current one D: An hour wasted. I'll do it another day i guess since skins nowsadays are just so unsatisfactory.

Paper1 today. Nothing much i think, except that i was hell damn freaking sleepy when i woke up today :o yawns&yawns&yawns. oh, WANLING LOOKS LIKE BOMBERWOMAN HAHAHAH. Kahwee agrees too anw,lol. So i still think you look like bomberwoman no matter how much you protest.

Chinese Paper1 was horrendous, my arms were pratically on the verge of breaking after writing that huge amount of words. I never ever sat down for 2hours&completed 7pages altogether of zuowen for opg. I normally take around 3hours or something,lol.

After School hanged around, din't do much. Attempted to study but guess it failed. Trooped down to the match place but thought it was really weird &left for TampinesMall instead lol. Met up with Gina, HuiLing, WanLing&Pam somehow &ended up sharing 2 Sundaes lol.

Home afterwards, 1 more min &i'll do an hour of Math, im really tired now :O

haven't posted in a couple of days but i think it just shows how much i'm slacking ): lol. weird though, normally when people post they slack, seems to be different for me. Or maybe in certain circumstances, who cares anw lol.


HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY STEADY :D :D :D

okay, the photo's gay. but i'm so sad to say that was the only photo i could find of you&me ): &even though we only knew each other better this yr, i think o.O it was still great knowing you aye :D because i can't imagine how life in 3/4D would be like without someone of the same stature as me! HAHAHA, i hope yesterday was a marvellous day for you :)

Lessons today were kinda quick except for i-dont-know-what. But yeah, pretty much fast-paced.

Stuffing our books into our lockers was quite fun actually omg. I think it was quite exciting to see the class chiong out to snatch for lockers because lockers were just way too scarce in this stupid school :O

After school, left for bugis to get stuffs. oh, you better thank me for this. i can't imagine doing stuffs next week, it's gonna be havoc. Except the plan HAHAHA, but i still don't think its workable.
Alright, paper1's tomorrow. I attempted Amaths questions but my minds wandering somewhere lol.

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back to AMath i think? :D
bye!

My 600th post :D

So i'll do something more meaningful even though its gonna be belated :O

Happy Birthday Kerensa my Beloved LaoGong :D

It was great knowing you &even better for you to be part of Vagdaks dearie. I heard of your wish that you said to Grace &it was really this bittersweet feeling that ran through me but yup, i'll make sure that wish of yours come true :D Anything for you my dearie yup!

It was really wondrous knowing you.

Cip today at White Sands as usual, oh it was hell freaking boring. I nearly died. The first 2hours were really torturous. In fact, i remember telling Grace "omg, its not even an hour yet." I can't believe i managed to survive that 3hour15mins. The last 45mins were spent rather well cos i was in the staff workroom cutting&chopping hahaha. I stole that job from Grace! hohoho :D

Met up with huhhhhh *does the irritating face* afterthat. Omg, Desiree's really cute lol. Even though she sat on my lap for 2 hours cos she wanted to play the computer, &even though she kept scolding me cos i wasn't assisting her well enough in her game LOL.

Anw, met up with Hweezy at the airport afterwards, late, but thank goodness Vc was with her, really sorry dear girl hahaha, even though you are a good partner in kp-ing by huhhhhh lol. Did a little Geog but its unfair cos Hweezy's class has a postponed crustal movement Geog test. If Sim's gonna say that she din't know our class has the test, she will just eat shit.

Home afterwards :D &I am not emo la, huhhhhhh LOL.

Studying tomorrow again i guess. But for now, im sleepy, tired, exhausted yawns yawns yawns.

GOODBYE!

I know things would never be the same again.
First Friday after CCA has stamped down for Secondary4s.

Lessons were pretty alright, i thought. I seriously suck at logarithms now, in fact i never was good at it. I need to eat more wood to bring up my Log D:

PE was hell humourous with Captain's Ball. We were shouting like nobody's business. &running around like mad idiots. Stealing the balls right from the hands of each other. &basically the game was superbly physically demanding lol. Anw, came up with the idea of class bbq then(:

After school was field trip to Supreme Court &URA building.

Supreme Court was really interesting &i thought it would be really cool if we were to actually be able to sit in for a hearing in the Court. Wonder how it would be like manz. URA building was so freaking boring :O Probably the only interesting part was pressing the button for the votes,lol.

Had dinner afterwards at Terminal2 (: Poor Bella was forced to go back before we even reached the canteen. Its okay though :D Talked alot about the future wedded life &stuff before heading over to Terminal3 for photos &CandyEmpire.

Home afterwards. &pictures another day! (:

oh gosh, i just remembered thrs library duty to be done tomorrow after getting it out of my brain for half an hour. i can't imagine doing shelving, blah shitz for another 3.5 hours :O

bye.

The truth's crystal clear.

day passed rather quickly i thought. nothing much really. i don't even know why im posting, probably for the sake of a post?lol. im just 2 posts away from 600 posts.

Tomorrow was supposed to be a late Thursday, but thrs class phototaking? ): So it din't really end up being later, darn sad case. At least we had our late Thursday last week, the bio students are the kelian ones lol.

&i just completed my Lit corrections, took me hell long. So i haven't touched my Physics revision as yet O.o maybe i'll sleep slightly later tonight, or maybe not lol. Afterall pop quizzes are never counted :O
i know people like you would highlight, hello esmond&fatguy lol.
Alright, father's nagging. bye.

i blogged cos i wanted to blog, &then again.

maybe not.

i hate the way things are going now.

nothing seems to be right, but dear God, tell me how.

was this the freedom you longed for at the expense of others?

enrolment service today. not much to say, but fishy said we looked funny singing on stage lol. i guessed we did. who knows? Maybe next year if i go for enrolment service, i'll see. thats if i do go as an alumni or maybe we would go as alumnus? (: hopefully.

Lunched at Swensen's after. Shared a regular earthquake with hweezy. okay, stickychewychocolate is nice lol. i don't want to be chanted at like your brother you know hohoho :D Skipped studying because we were really way too exhausted.
Sorry hweezy for pangseh-ing you again ): TOMORROW ALRIGHT :D

oh& i just realised i really suck at audition now,lol. Don't think i even qualify for a Level5 now when i'm apparently level 7? o.O miss those times of playing audition with wanzhen&hweezy (:

its upsetting to know that all along this was merely nothing to you.
Maybe i never really knew you right from the start.
I'll sleep now. bye.

im redownloading audition for hells know what reasons but whatever. i shouldn't be downloading it, cos i should be studying D:

&i just remembered i actually haven't learnt the lyrics for tomorrow's enrolment. i'll do it later. &i havent prepared my uniform either. i'll do it later, after i completed my magnets revision.

reading other people's blogs about their handover, it just set me thinking.

whatever, for now. its back to magnets. i don't really get the worksheet ): maybe i'll ask hweezy tomorrow when we are studying at the airport. that girl's really got alot of things in common with me. guess only she knows what im referring to :D

Thank God.

life's dull, ive been thinking alot throughout the week. i hated the week. &then again, theres Sunday's lunch to look forward to with the rest(: Its contadictory isn't it.

I guess i wouldn't study afterall but i just can't stand it.

Why is life so hard sometimes? I know there was once somebody said during devotion that everything God has planned for you in your life has a reason. Maybe we were bound to reach the end before life truly started. Time should have been the medicine for all. &yet....

"You win some, You lose some." How true.

Whats over is over, i guess. Bob Esmond &fatguy, don't be so sad manz :D :D :D

Enrolment, followed by _______ &lunch :D

thanks kahwee, grace, vc, wanzhen, fionna, amelia&debra for dinner&for everything you guys have gone through throughout this 4years.

Sunday's coming. Its something worth anticipating with our jerseys (:

&thanks steady(: that was really very sweet of you. your handover's already so hallelujah for you :D :D :D

YES HAHAHAHAH! i'm out of A.Maths Tutorial &i can officially say bye to GeokLian.

Today's lessons were kinda boring but coming late when Bio students were having their common test was hohoho. Eating at 85 while SheenaYi, Steady&HL milk were cracking their brains for meosis?or whatever that thing is called lol.

Physics was really amusing though. MrTan was so damn frigging[DEBRA LOOK AT THIS, AHAHAHAHHA] funny.

Anw, screwed rate of change, maxima &minima test. Everybody around me only knew how to do question3 T.T &i thought MrChan's tests were designed for people to pass. Hell no, i don't agree at all lol. To think i thought that rate of change was actually quite easy sometimes-.- i got to change my thinking like how the laoren should gai bian ta men de xin tai &zi li geng sheng LOL. thats from the stupid mo xie thing anw.

Decided to skip Amath tutorial initially even before i knew the results cos i couldnt stand the idea of viewing GeokLian's face again.

Had a quick lunch at Kobayashi's with Peh&Tan.

oh&on the way home with Peh to take the train was damn funny omg. I can't believe the both of us were that retarded. I even laughed to myself when i was on the train alone when i thought of the scene la, omg AHWANG HAHAHA. Freak,so damn funny i can't believe it actually happened.

Probability test tomorrow! ): i don't know whether i can score for it anw.

this place i'll reminisce over


i think i shall go sleep now :D what a lengthy post lol. thanks to pictures actually.

bye!

its irritating during lessons to know that im daydreaming away about almost everything. weird though, i hardly even think about things other then studying for tests nowsadays. plus, its even more annoying to know that i haven't started revising for the Big O because tests just keep piling up :B

Amaths test tomorrow :O i don't know if im prepared or what but im so drained out by question after question of dy/dx O.O and chain rule.

Did 2hours in school today&2hours again at home (: Accomplished? slightly, even though its not alot but i guess its still an improvement afterall!

im still waiting for people to finish practicing their dy/dx before i sleep lol.

goodbye :D

pretty abstract :D a feeling of hope

dint update for a number of days for a couple of reasons i guess. Too many mixed emotions to be expressed &i'll probably take a few hours trying to explain my every emotion thats going through my minds nowsadays.

POP's over. minor screwups here there. feeling of real relieve when i was saluting Pearlyna i don't know why. True enough, its mental stress that would undergo someone of such position. I guessed ive undergone too much of it that im already numb. Just hoping that Pearlyna's gonna do a better job (:

Lessons are getting murderous cos i can hardly go pass a day without feeling exhausted or tired. I dread attempting to pull my eyelids apart when im really tired &yet, i know i have to do so. Maybe POP's not that good afterall cos right now theres no more reason for me to slack a little more.

Anw, Sakae's outing was pushed forward to today! :D

Ate plates&plates but i guess it wasn't filling after i reached home cos i actually realised i was kind of hungry afterthat-.- Sakae's was funny though. Debra's uncontrollable arms, Sheena&Seemui's slow anticipation for the food to go pass on the conveyor belt &Bella's constant ordering of Sushi on the computer lol.

Talked a little &i think i should be motivated to study more, afterall pop's over. CCA's no longer another reason. &i should be doing myself a favour.

Skipped dinner tonight &used the time to sleep. 2 hours :D I seldom even have afternoon naps nowsays.

Alright, Qualitative Analysis is still left drifting afloat. i need to make sure i have full grasp of it!

Goodbye! ;D

oh, im hitting my 600th post,lol. Exluding those posts that i have deleted before, like 50+ over.

i don't know why im updating though, except the reason of people asking me to update,lol. But today's a boring day except I MIGHT JUST NOT BADE GOODBYE TO GEOKLIAN. i suffered from extreme mental block during the tests &simple questions like R-formula i was unable to do-.- OMG kill me. Geok Lian had better not accept me in her remedial, such as saying too many people fail so shes gonna take certain ones out, HAHAHAH. alright fat hope-.-

& a random thought: I LEVELLED UP IN VIWAWA hahahahah omg. considering the fact that i don't always play&i have been continuously disconnected by the stupid server, its rather a huge accomplishment LOL.

alright, i don't have much things to blog about, so yeah i should go to sleep now :D

its 12am already, i don't normally use the computer till this late on school days though, playing viwawa :B &waiting for people who apparently was back BUT DINT TELL ME >:(

lol, bye!

just murdered myself attempting questions at Chapter 13 with Choonpei by my side. I realised that i have quieten down so much more now during Tuition Lessons, agree?lol :D At least 2 hours would be more fruitfully used i guess, rather then singing non-stop or eating non-stop O.O

&theres gonna be further trigo test for Amaths remedial tomorrow. Sayonara Lim Geok Lian! hohoho. I'll get out of your Amaths remedial lessons because its an extreme waste of time &i don't see the point of going to your class at all :D But thats provided i pass the test tomorrow T.T

anw, i shall sleep early tonight, 11.30! bonus since i have been sleeping at 12 plus 1 these days {I REFRAINED MYSELF FROM USING NOWSADAYS; PERFECT ENGLISH! lol.}

gahhhh, there's drill tomorrow after Amaths remedial :O

Stop treating us like invalids because the fact is that we have seen things which you claim to have seen when you havent.

bye :D

today was a rather fun day i think. or maybe its just a normal day&yet slightly better? i don't know. was in a rather happy mood throughout though :D

Lessons were reasonably quick &even though i most carelessly forgot about my ss homework, ms Zarinah seemed to be in a good mood too! (: So everything seem to be fine hahhaa. alright, i don't really get what im typing but its just some really random stuffs.

Chem SPA was disastrous since i actually read ascending as descending, kill me -.- &the temperature in the lab was steadily rising like i-dont-know-what.

Stayed back in class for awhile afterwhich to finish up my SS homework &went late for drill.

Drill was rather, not much comments but the sec3s owed 120.

Clearing of punishment was a darn funny thing i don't know why. Those two idiots seemed to have developed some kind of mental block after running& pumping so much so that they lagged like hell lol.

anw, chionged home &now im here blogging when i should be reading yanyu >:(

alright, BYE! :D

&another thing i won't bear to leave after four years is definitely them :D

i had alot to say for yesterday, but i guess. it all boils down to words unspoken.

Seeing the scene of choir performing their best for us, it just sent my thoughts spiralling away about my own cca. Its more then just love that comes from within us, its our passion that expresses our disappointment and extreme upsetness. 4years go past without us even knowing. Even if we do scold, even if we do get irritated by cca, even if we do start complaining. Its just, our love that has developed immensely throughout this 4years.

Grace said something which i really agreed to even if others don't.
"The ONLY best thing about Anglican High throughout this 4 years have to be the cca."

We might get disgusted by others &stuffs but ohwells. We may be angry but its merely our love that brings about our anger.

to Esmond: you seem to be okay alr lol, BUT NO WORRIES MANZ. YOUR TEMPERAMENTAL FRIEND WILL STILL BE SITTING NEXT TO YOU,hahaha.

to fatguy: i dont know what to say,lol. but dont dao my msg next time hahaha. &i agree with your post manz, its experience that your gained hahaa.

okay, i slacked my head off during this weekend alr. i shouldn't be slacking that much :D :D :D :D :D :D :D i have a huge urge to type tons of smileys all of a sudden hahaha.

byebye.

i guess this is gonna be an i-dont-know post.

It sucks to know that after all that we have put in, everything might just come to total waste. Its definitely not something that i would want to see&definitely not what people from outside would want to see either. i Don't know. Its a totally undescribeable feeling. Just like "This feeling's like no other~" okay crap. But i guess, maybe its our lack of faith? Nevertheless, there don't seem to be anything to give me this sudden surge of belief that everything would be fine. That award would still be within our hands.

Its just, i dont know.

I guess its only the few of us who get it, possibly? I mean, after talking it out with Vc, Debra.P, Sheena&Grace. Its really worrying, really a cause for concern &definitely something that we as seniors would not want to see happen.

Conclusion proved that its merely talks. All talk, no action. Its not just the batch, its the cohort. Ambitious? Think over again. I mean whats the use of being ambitious with the thought of merely wanting to surpass us? It's not going to be easy because we have gone through it. We know whats it like to be through this shit times. Its not easy,definitely not.

The next issue of attitude is yet another sickening fact. I don't know if its called stacking up of expectations but this expectations are not to be slackened.
We cannot afford to slacken &we cannot afford to deprove in our standard.
This efforts we put in to create the wonderful Family we have now, its not just talks. Its more then just talks. But with such attitude, i guess question mark comes into the mind.

We have gone through shit periods, really shit periods. &once even to the extent of giving up, pissing of others. &because of that, we know that its not easy. Its something that no one can understand unless we have been through it. Moving on with that thinking about trying to surpass us is not just it.

Effort put in is more than just words that you are currently spewing out of your mouths. Constant 'yes' don't seem to have any impact on your whatsoever. Your claim that your want to do it, but from what im seeing now, i can only conclude with one word. DISAPPOINTMENT. Life is going to be hard if you want to train for this because its tough, physically strenous and mentally torturing. But if your come out of it alive, battered &bruised. At least i know one thing, your have proved your worth.

However, as of now, i guess. i ain't gonna see nothing.

I guess today was mixed with huge amount of emotions. I felt super waves of different emotions,lol. &i figured out something myself at the end of the day :D

so, tomorrow's yet another cca day. nothing much i guess. OH &FAT IDIOT GET WELL SOON lol. dont be angry manz lol. later emotion rollercoaster like me,lol.

anw, Amaths remedial was again another waste of utmost time because Lim Geok Lian kept making mistakes which confused me so much i decided not to copy down what she was saying :D BRILLIANT lol. Afterthat the initially planned study session was changed to ermz, talk alot session?haha.

GraciFoo is a damn funny person&Cheryl Mun loves going Oei! while Hweezy tempts people lollol. Laughed alot during that time at things like PorkChop or whatever nonsense,lol.

Anw, i guessed i failed in my attempt to study today ): Suddenly, im hooked onto viwawa,lol.

byebyebyebyebye!

&i shouldnt be here now once again. But everytime i say that im still here-.- funny how the mind works sometimes. Plus, i just wasted 1hour of my life contributing to the show thats gonna take place during Chinese Lesson tomorrow. I I could have jolly well used that 1hour for better things like maybe even SLEEPING-.-

-once again, i scraped yet another paragraph out, PREVENT SOME PEOPLE FROM (act)EMO-ING LOL-

alright, lit test tomorrow seems kinda i-don't-know. im afraid they give prior to questions and even after reading the book again, im still afraid i'll be screwed upside down o.o

&Friday's chem test is even more worrying because i know my chem has been down the dumps ever since last yr's eoy paper ); lost all confidence for chem since then. d-uuuuuuh.

at least i know that im making an effort to study nowsadays. i think Debra's a really good studying partner ;D

bye!