HI PEOPLE I'VE SHIFTED TO HERE.

wish

hi babies i wish for a simple dinner, a simple meet up, a simple get together.
dear fairy godmother can you grant me this simple wish please? :(

upsized fear

I think I just killed my brains. no more stalking of blogs.

bye.

:)

im blogging in gp lesson now. somehow after attending gp tuition, gp tutorials seem more understandable but still as boring. mei chew just have to tell us about human meat buns while lessons-.-

been attending night study dutifully for a couple of weeks now, pretty much productive if I know how to make full use of it, &i know if I told people this I'll get slapped but sometimes I'd pretty much like night study to be for three hours :D it makes me feel great somehow.

I love my friends for being thr for me, for being so awesome and simply just for being them. my cousin's a great deal of help to me (excluding the fattening part D: ) but otherwise I guess I'm really picking up! ^.^

it's just a short 5 more months to As & out of this school ;)

I can't wait for the eight months of fun! & money earning opportunities. but for now, mugggggggggggg!!!

time trials

I think i'm better off now thn before. love the life I'm leading now sometimes& yet sometimes I hate it. ironic much??

I followed some horoscope thingy on Twitter, and it says that Scorpio don't engage in small talk. pretty much accurate for me I guess.

okay weird I just realised I intended to post this to livejournal but I clicked the wrong app, just as well. maintaining blogs are kinda draining.

time heals everything definitely

i decided that blogging at the blogger's still more addictive & way much easier so yes im back here.

DEBRAPEH MY LOVE I THINK YOU HAVE DONE GREAT TODAY, I HOPE YOU'LL SEE THIS COS I KINDA KILLED MY BLOG ABOUT ONE MONTH AGO. BUT STILL YOU WERE REALLY WONDERFUL TODAY, I KNOW YOU'LL BE STRONGER THROUGH THIS, RMBR I'LL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU IF YOU NEED ME. (L) :D :D

on a side note, i packed the things that were under my bed just awhile ago :) &thr's nothing underneath. i saw the box of things though, i hesitated to open it, i dint anyway. &yet, i dont feel like im affected whatsoever. now i officially pronounce myself done w everything ^.^
seeing debbyz now is like seeing how i was thn. okay im not making sense ~

yupz, A levels here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a whole new world

hi world. i think I feel like neglecting this blog and posting permanently at lj. those whom alr know my lj, good for you. otherwise I guess it's just too bad.

bye blogger, you served me for an amazingly long period of 5 years but I guess all good things come to an end. takecare my blog <3

you get what you deserve

summary of my post exam activity.
1. pool w Keith ccb Perry andy and jervin.
-basket Keith ccb and Perry damn imba. but Keith and me made a good pair la hahahaha!
2. bowl w Andy and jervin.
-all three superbly lousy LOL.
3. ogl BBQ in school ^.^ :D :)
-official satay woman throughout the 3hours.
-thanks to Jeremy for the specs to shield the fire ^.^
-thanks to dearie for sharing w me her food whn she had food <3
-thanks to Sean for continually delivering water to me :D
4. lepak at airport w other cfs and emen low
-mass photospam w the cfs in the airport, especially in the lift lol!
-did mass dance in the airport, Kena stared at like mad but heck superrrrrr fun!
-played murderer
-played mrt (this was hell damn hilarious, I swear my legs were red like mad after that hahahahha)
-I think we kena stomped LOL.
-reached home at one plus am.

HAD A WONDERFUL DAY YTD :) love everybody that contributed to how fabulous it was (L)

the last lap

omg I'm so tired I want to sleep. but tomorrow's the last paper.
JIAYOU YAOZHIWEI!!! 

promises are lies with pretty ribbons tied to them

awesome downloaded this new app to allow me blog from my iPhone itself ^.^ can't stop downloading more and more new apps to amuse myself sometimes :D

kayz it's maths paper tomorrow. I know I'll screw it up but I just hopeeeee that it won't be too bad??

I kinda can't stop thinking about everything idk why.

how now brown cow

WO KUAI YAO FENG DIAO LE LA.

i know i'll fail i know i'll fail, i want to give up i want to give up, BUT I DONT HAVE THE COURAGE TO DO SO WTH. ahhhhhhhhhhhh zen me ban zen me ban. wo yao feng diao le.

speechless

disappointed.

if this is yet another pathetic attempt, idk what else to say. clearly, this indicates something doesn't it?? what did i do in my previous life to deserve this? whats worst is i allowed myself to be contained by this, i allowed myself to change the way i could have done things. im deeply apologetic to the bunch, but what else more could i have done?? if i'm given a chance i'll redo this again, and not let myself be easily defeated.

on the other hand, i've got a new shifu to teach me drumssss ^.^ but i think i'll start only after midyears?? hmm see how.

its alright to hope, but remember to wake up from your dreams at the end of the day

I HOPE THE CAMP'S GONNA BE ALRIGHT, I HOPE THE CAMP'S GONNA BE FUN, I HOPE THE CAMP'S GONNA BE A ROCKING SUCCESS!!!
though i know kinda tough thanks to the ______ but still.... GROUP A FTW GROUP 1 FTW! A01 FTWWWWWWW! (Y)

k nights all.

i hope that's all fine, im gonna shit.

unscrupulous means

i realised I have not posted since a week ago. and for nowadays sucha record is almost unlikely. I don't really know what I'm blogging now cos I'm using my phone to post so pardon me if the posting is kinda nonsensical.

anw the week passed damn awesomely cos mrs pang dint come, not that I'm rejoicing over her sickness or what but her periods always end of the day and so it's like we get to end school soooooo much earlier (Y)! can you believe I dint ever end past 4 the past week hahahah. imagine the euphoria man (I learnt this in gp that day. dystopia's the opposite lol)

anw had a couple of bday celebrations, including lee jinghan's and beloved amelia's'! (L) reached home pretty late almost everyday lol. but whatever.

a level results were released yesterday and I believe thr was like a huge wave of emotions present. I wonder what'll happen to me next year when I collect my results :( whatever the case please please please let me into a local recognized uni thanks ^.^

I can't wait for wed to come cos I'll be meeting D and then the next day's camp. I wonder... hmm k nights all :D

oh and something to add and that's I'm lucky to have friends from all walks of life like seriously. it made my day knowing that someone whom might not even really know me that well previously chose to believe me. on the other hand, the methods that have been employed to defame me merely proves how ignorant one can get, and for that it's empathy that comes from my heart. shouldn't we start acting like our age alr??

i want a lightning bolt

PERCY JACKSON &THE LIGHTNING THIEF :)
superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr nice la the show, effects like zai ttm (Y) :] caught it today after school. Was supposed to study at tamp library, but being the oh-so-lazy idiots taking/retaking Alevels this year but still dw to study, we chose the movie instead. Guilty much? But omg, the show really nice. the main character like mini zac effron lol. The ironic part is i hate zac effron, but i like logan lerman ^.^

GO & WATCH IT OKAY PEHZ! :] DONT BE JEALOUS HAHAHHA. you caught dear sam without me also.... so dont say i suan you here lol.

Anw the week's passed boring boring much. & my final decision was to get iPhone in the end. & i dont regret. APPS GALOREEEEEEEE :> just that somehow the wifi always kok up in one way or another but whatever data plan FTW !!! :B heh.

Monday got vectors test, screw it.

#2692, debra♥ I REALLY FEEL LIKE SLEEPING, serious. says:
BESTFRIEND then top priority what!
hahahahahahahaha

THR THIS IS TO THREATEN YOU!!!!

#2692, debra♥ I REALLY FEEL LIKE SLEEPING, serious. says:
HAHAHAH*okay i X other conv
then u are my only distraction

AUDREYAO says:
LOL HAHAHAHA SHIT THIS SOUNDS DAMN FREAKING THIS DISGUSTING
you are my only distraction
LOL LOLOLOL

iPhone VS Blackberry

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like biased ttm??? why blackberry bigger than iphone in this photo lol. but wahlau howwwwwwwwwwwww

time never fails to stop.

Universal studios on second day of cny was like okay okay, i tried to psycho my daddy to get a dslr lol. Apparently he says to sell off the 2 digicams i have at home that kinda suck &maybe he'll get us one :) heh.

true that!
& i found out something yesterday which apparently i dont even feel anything at all, so happy much?? :)

ANW HAPPY BDAY NGZXIANG! THANKS FOR THE SUPPORT YOU GAVE THESE PAST TWO MONTHS AND EVERYTHING HOPE YOU HAD A WONDERFUL BURPDAY TODAY! :)

HAPPY BDAY BRANDON NG! YOU LIKE SUPER NICE YOUR CUPCAKES + YOUR SPARE PHONE HAHAHAHA. DONT TRY AND LOOK AT MY EZLINK AGAIN, AINT WORK.

kay bye!

i dont even feel any twist in my heart.

cny is over.......... i so sad :(

i need to go do bday card alr. got people bday need to do nice nice. but then dont expect sushi or ben and jerry's please... i will die on the spot like die on the spot. lol.

kay i know got homework. just now go dinner w D ^.^ [apparently its sexy and secretive to name D... -.-]

byebye

catastrophe awaiting.

a post that is like totally taken from iiskewlz tumblr lol.

A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on the road on a motorcycle…

Girl: Slow down. I am scared.

Guy: No this is fun.

Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!

Guy: Then tell me you love me.

Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!

Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.

-:- Girl hugs him -:-

Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? Its bugging me.

(In the paper the next day): A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure. Two people were on it, but only one survived.The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn’t want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.

“Love is not selfish so Love is not being happy it is to make happy to whom you love even if you are unhappy with it.”

No one really knows what tomorrow holds in store for you, you might not live to see the next day and sometimes you have to tell someone something but run out of time to do so. So take five minutes out of your time to tell someone you love them because you really never know if this is the last day of your life.

you fear not the injuries but the scars they leave behind

Funny aye the way that this photo was taken when about 1month plus ago, but the memory still stays fresh within. It's like everything that happens stays w you forever no matter how long ago it has taken place.

&i saw this off another person's blog again. [omg i really need to stop stalking blogs of people whom idk personally. but wait, blogs are for stalking aren't they lol. k i talking to myself. ] which once again makes sense much/many/alot lol.

" People say that walking away is the hardest thing to do, but it isn't. Staying, even when you know it will break your heart is the toughest. Staying right where you are, waiting for your heart to be ripped apart is much harder than walking away and starting anew. "

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anyway, heres a happy cny, a happy vday & a happy bday to my brudder. HAHHAHA. SHENG RI KUAI LE!!!! :) thanks for being sucha wonderful buddayyyyyy to me in school and out school. Though you keep getting like blamed for things which are not even your fault whatsoever but you still never rebutt back and i thank you for that la k. anyway hope you enjoy this 3 in 1 special day for yourself!!! :D :D
HALUAAAAAAA! LOL.

&to all out thr, happy cny + vday! ^.^
OH SPECIAL THANKS TO HITLER FOR THE HOMEMADE BUT DONT WORRY IT'S EDIBLE SUSHI :D
ciao~

its those memories that get stuck inside without fail

hehehe especially liked the last 2 photos w dearie :)

thr's soooooooo many bdays coming up nowadays but then like i have completely no mood to settle their presents.. sian ttm please. luckily i settled one of it already, but it's the bday that comes the latest &now all i need is just to to do a card... siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn again lol

anw have been dining out the past few days including today ^.^ met junh and zhiming to have like trio dinner cos the rest all kinda pangseh-ed. &this was like a belated celebration for that immature fella.. lol walked about parkway then bus-ed back to tm and walked again, basically lepak allllllll the way :) how long have i not done this ohshitz. [wait i think i did that on take a photo day when i met up w bestiewestie... k nvm]

aiya i too lazy to update already la. HAPPY BDAY LIMBOONKAI, IT WAS SUCHA COINCIDENCE I MET YOU ON THE BUS, AND MET BESTIEWESTIE TOO :) THANKS FOR BUSING DOWN TO KATONG W ME, INSTEAD OF DROPPING TO TAKE THE TRAIN HEH. HAPPY 20TH!!

HAPPY BDAY CHUAZONGZUO I KNOW DAMN LONG NEVER TALK TO YOU ALREADY LIKE 1YEARS ++?? BUT ANYWAY HOPE YOU HAVE STOPPED GROWING COS BLOODY HELL YOU'RE ALREADY 1.9 SO STOP IT LOL. KK HAPPY 18TH!!! i dont think you'll visit this anymore... -.- lol

ps. i really thinking of permanently blogging at the other blog. should i should i?? i'll open it up to the public. anyway livejournal can lock posts. hmm..

10 things.

hahaha i was reading this random person's blogpost & thr was one particular post that was damn cool. cos it was kinda spot on lol.

1. No, ladies aren't very difficult to understand.
You just think they're difficult to understand so much so that whenever they say something be it a casual comment or occasional compliment, you think they're implying something else, more than just the surface value of their words. Actually, that's just it. Stop probing into nothing it's damn annoying.

2. I don't understand why guys think shirts are just for formal occasions. You actually look really good and smart when you wear shirts and berms even on regular days for mundane activities such as a movie or shopping trip with your lady/friends. T-shirts are cute. Shirts, are cool.
2.5. Sub-point from above: if you dress well (not elaborate like a clown, well as in whatever brings out your charm) it's ALWAYS a plus point even if you're only average looking.

3. Don't use cheesy pick-up lines like "Hey do you have a plaster? 'Cause today, I fell for you." Major turn off, for me at least. No, it's not cute. I'd just give you an infinitely weird look and laugh in your face I swear.

4. Okay I know it's the 21st century and it's fair for ladies to confess to guys but still, there are dead shy ladies around (AHEM). It'd be nice if you could open your mouth first. Shy boys are really cute, if they've got the balls it's a major plus point. Shy boys who choose to forever keep their silence are depressingly tough to handle. Guys with no balls and huge egos are just, bye bye.

5. When in a quarrel, after the first 5-10mins, all you really need to do is say "I love you babe" and hug the lady (not go on quarrelling with her and trying to come up with 101 reasons why you did wrong or why she should buzz off). That's enough, you don't even need to say you're sorry if it's your fault (although it's always kind to say so), she still loves you to bits. This, is 100% true for me. But excuse me, this doesn't work all the time okay some faults must be acknowledged uh, relationships need to be worked on, love alone can't see it through.
5.5. (But if you just hug me I will melt a million times over and while I might still be $&@#*!:#&$*#*!^#@#>">"@#$:"}{&#!-ing away at you, I'm really just saying: Asshole why'd you make me so upset, I love you too.) Okay this might only apply for me, I'm not too sure bout others hahaha sorry.

6. Hit a lady and you'dve earned a one way ticket out of her life, bastard.

7. We don't care for the amount of candy you buy us, or the number of gifts you present us with. We care about being in your thoughts even when you're having a boys night out. We care about being the first person you think of when you wake, when you need someone to talk to (notice how i used the word need, not just want), when you have trouble making decisions. You don't have to tell it to us like "Hey i'm thinking about you now, and now, and now...... and always" 'cause that's just kinda scary. We'll know without you saying it, trust me, your actions will show more than you think they do. This shouldn't be a deliberate thing, but a natural occurrance. And if we're being annoying and saying "why don't you ever tell me how much you miss me", we know you do (if you REALLY do luh) but we just want to hear it from you. (And sometimes we're waiting to say I've been missing you too.) Damn, this sounds so.....lame. Whatever, judge if you must. Bah.

8. When goodbyes have been said, wait for her to hang up first. (Usually I'd just say bye and hang up but there're some people who like to play the "let's wait and see if he'll just hang up first" game- it's retarded but cut the lady some slack) It's not like some big shit if you hang up first but I guess it can come across as you not really giving much of a damn and being eager to quit the conversation. Idk man, this is relative to how sensitive your lady might be luh- if she's an extreme case (I have a friend who got into huge shit for hanging up first, so poorthing omg) then just stick to this religiously hahaha.

9. If you cook for her (during an appropriate occasion or as a surprise even), there's a high chance that you're a keeper. (especially if she's a glutton and has a soft spot for guys who put in the effort, like me.) Just, please make sure whatever you made is edible.

10. Be faithful. Need her, not just want her. It works both ways.

hahahaha completely spot on. i'll love to credit the blogger but idk her personally, so... lol. ohwells. heck. how amazingly accurate lol.

no matter how hard life gets, always face it w a smile.

CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING &IM FINALLY GETTING A BREAK :DDD
but thr's so much work to catch up on, oh niuu....

kayz nevermind, I HAVE A DINNER W BESTIEWESTIE TOMORROW! zai (Y). even though school's gonna end off late, school's gonna end off w pe, school's gonna be sucky cos im gonna fail physics tomorrow, school's gonna be hell damn boring, i have dinner to look forward to ^.^ [ my new emoticon, hehehhee.]

Today's leave a mark day quite funny hahahaa. Tomorrow gonna be take a photo day erm erm. i remember taking this daaaaaaaaaaaamn old photo last year w the ahs-tpjc people hahhaa.

omg we looked so cute L-o-l!

HAPPY BDAY STUPID ZHIMING YOU 20 YEAR OLD ALREADY STILL SO CHILDISH, GO EAT SHIT PLEASE HAHAHHAHA. I ONLY HAVE THIS PHOTO THAT WE TOOK LIKE TWO YEARS AGO THE COUNTDOWN PARTY, AND ITS W JUNH SOMEMORE HAHAHHAA. (and this is in your fave colour somemore, gay ttm)

WHATEVER THE CASE YOU'RE NOW 20 SO YA HAPPY BDAY LOL!

oh&happy bday to BenGan! lol.

alright, i shall go try stuff abita oscillations in my brain, though quite impossible.
ciao~

rants pants.

I GOT SO MANY TESTS THIS WEEK, SIAN TTM. SHOULD I GO DOWN TO SERANGOON NOW?? BUT I LAZY LEI HOW. AND I THINKING OF CLOSING THIS BLOG AND JUST BLOG PERMANENTLY AT THE OTHER ONE, BUT THEN I STILL LIKE BLOGGER BETTER LEI HOW. AND WHY PEOPLE SO CHILDISH NOWADAYS AH. LIKE WONT GROW UP ONE LEI HOW. THEN MY PHONE DK WHY CANNOT UPLOAD PHOTOS, TRY FROM LAST NIGHT UNTIL NOW GAOGAY!!! I KNEW MY PHONE KOK BUT WONT KOK UNTIL LIKE THAT RIGHT, SIAN HOW HOW HOW?? AIYA SO MANY QUESTIONS SO BORING SIAN.

THANK YOU FATGUY FOR THE SWENSENS TREAT YESTERDAY, GAMSIA.

K SHOULD I GO DOWN NOT WAHLAU DAMN LAZY AHHHHHHHHH.

that split second felt like eternity

i have really cute ogms :) The celebration was pretty alright & i liked bringing them around during cca showcase as well ^.^

School's getting on my nerves. Aint gonna do anymore shitz to waste my time now. It's either home or whatnots. Something damn embarassing happened today omg, can go kill myself on the spot ; only a few people know lol.

&earlier on during the 2hours break in school superrrr cool. I was thinking whether to text bestf and ask him how was school like for the past week, then the next thing i know i received a text from him asking me how was i coping w school :D zai (Y) But as usual he replied like 3 texts and died -.-

Yesterday i headed down to MJ orientation to find pehzzzz w Jerv. He went to find esmond &leon hahahaha. awesome, orientation MJ always had. siaaaaaan. i want orientation camp to come asap. WHOS IN MY OGGGGGGG????

Tomorrow's another detestful day in school but omg TGIF.

bye i want to catch abit of sleep first.

back on track

Now that everything's over, i can finally start to catch up on my rest/ sleep plus tutorials. I'm lagging behind so badly, i can't catch up on lectures & i cant catch up on my work. Sometimes i really just feel like giving up &maybe drop out to work or something. But no, that's ridiculously dumb to think so.

Anyway, i've a resolution to complete vectors by today. TRY and complete lam's assignments. & die die must finish econs by tomorrow. Crap, what must i do by tomorrow for econs? o.o

OG 4's amazing :) seriously. Orientation was quite good. My members are damn awesome (Y). They're like sticking together now, even without the OGLS around, thumbs up! ^.^ Tomorrow they'll be celebrating JingJie's bday. AWESOME. Shar has this 50% discount thingy off bakerzia lololol.

I want to have dinner w my bestf, but that crazy fella's schedule's so packed. Im so apologetic things cropped up & dinner got cancelled. Thanks for being supportive anw :D &your decision's your choice :) I'm glad you told me the moment you decided on your route anw. SEE YOU SOON IF THR'S TIME :] (k i feel stupid cos i dont even know if keane's gonna read this -.-)

anw, time to log off and bathe+tutorial time.

ps. i miss you grandma. rip.

sleep deprived.

im damn tired now. like not enough sleep ttm. i should go& sleep. tomorrow morning still need to go down early, final step. afterthat i can finally be properly rested. byebye.

different perspectives

it wasnt really a good day afterall. but at least im okay now.
i hope i'll be able to go down later, i want to at least be thr.

that im better off on my own.

i havent blogged for like a few days.

Anyway lessons are really a drag cos i cant catch up on my work at all. I cant wait for Thursday when the J1s come in, cos it's gonna be pretty fun :) Even though its mostly admin stuffs. But heck, the camp's gonna be bloody awesome.

Thr's mass dance practice tomorrow after school at 6. idk what time it's gonna end. Poor bestf will just have to wait for me to finish before we go for dinner ^^ chitchat time!! :D yayyyyyy i think tomorrow's gonna be a good day.

I got damn awesome friends la seriously. Cant stand it.
&outta my life you go. I can't be bothered w whatever that's going anymore. (Y) I just want to score well for my A's and get my ass outta this school.

I SHALL LOG OFF NOW AND GO DO MY READING LOGS PLUS TRY STUDY BIT OF VECTORS. HOPEFULLY IT'LL WORK :D

pieces

I tried to be perfect

But nothing was worth it

I don’t believe it makes me real

I thought it’d be easy

But no one believes me

I meant all the things I said

If you believe it’s in my soul

I’d say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

That I’m trying to let you know

That I’m better off on my own

This place is so empty

My thoughts are so tempting

I don’t know how it got so bad

Sometimes it’s so crazy

That nothing can save me

But it’s the only thing that I have

If you believe it’s in my soul

I’d say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

That I’m trying to let you know

That I’m better off on my own

On my own

I tried to be perfect

It just wasn’t worth it

Nothing could ever be so wrong

It’s hard to believe me

It never gets easy

I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it’s in my soul

I’d say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

That I’m trying to let you know

That I’m better off on my own

&& i never stole another chance again.

I THINK I SHOULD SLAP MYSELF IN THE HEAD FOR BEING SO EASILY DISTRACTED. BUT ANYWAY I THINK I SHOULD GO AND STUDY FOR ECONS NOW & OWN THE SHITASS OUT OF EVERYBODY [ HAHAHHA KIDDING] BUT I SERIOUSLY FORGOT EVERYTHING ABOUT ECONS ALREADY. & THR'S PHYSICS TO BE DONE OMG KILL ME.

oh i hope tomorrow can go eat dessert ^^ :D
Anyway if can't it's okay, i'll go on Saturday wheeeeeee~

edited/}
apparently it's already 7 when i told myself i'll start work at 7. WTH.
& IT'S 7.10 NOW KILL ME.
endedit/}

&thats the way love's used.

"Love is a word that is often overused. When someone says “I love those shoes” they don’t literally mean they “love” the shoes. They just like them. Our generation has told too many people “I love you” People say it like it’s nothing. Just something that you are “supposed” to say. It begins to lose it’s true meaning. No one understands what love really means until they meet that one person that you want to be with every second of everyday. The one person that could make you fall apart. The person that can control your mood. The person that if they died you wouldn’t know how you were going to go on. The person that can make you smile when you want to cry. The person that no matter how much they have hurt you, you still want them, and couldn’t imagine being without them. The person that when just IMAGINING who they have been with and what they have done with them could just bring tears to your eyes. Some people mistake that if you love someone that everything has to be perfect with them. That you will never fight, never argue. No. That’s just appears to be love, and what we want to believe is love. When you love someone you are with them through the thick and thin, the good and the bad. So when using the word “love” think about it. Don’t just say it because you think it’s the right moment to say it, or because you think you are supposed to say it."

Hahhahaa, true much??

But anyway i really love my friends.
Simple things like showing concern for my grandmother today after they knew what happened the day before felt good. Because honestly yesterday i was damn freaked out. At least those that knew cared :}

& i think i really need to start a resolution to kick my phone aside. How the hell did i reach my 7k target again even w Bangkok + OBS?? shit.

It's like never before.

It's only the Second week of school, But why do i feel like i'm already dying. I need to catch up on my work, but i'm still blogging here. I kinda want to turn time back to cca showcase, because at least school had yet to start, at least i still felt gr8 being back in ahs.

On a side note, i realised something pretty amazing. The times i start would be the times i ended lol. Debra should understand what i mean by that. &anw my message counter looks scary now. I haven't done this since like 9 months ago omg.

trynots.

I just want to say that thr's this really inexplicable feeling within me.
& it's not the weird feeling i described to zixiang the other day. It's this really strange feeling that's stirring within me. okaaaaaay this is really weird....

Another lesson learnt.

Today's yet another thought inspiring day.

OGL training today was unbelievably fun, &greatly enriching. I must say it's a training i've never experienced before, because even with the fun that's going on apt lessons were learnt. It's pretty amazing even a simple action of sitting down/ standing up can learn so much more from it.

Honestly i especially liked the game of Customs& Smugglers. It wasn't much, but somehow it was yet another lesson learnt, which impacted me kinda greatly.

He posed us this question regarding our attitude in life when we face difficult situations.
1. Would you choose to take a step forward, take a risk to solve the problem, despite knowing that thr might be even more problems appearing.
2. Would you choose instead to stay behind, & take the more passive stand, choosing to hide from everything & hope for things to solve by itself.

Logically speaking, number 1 would be the right answer. But honestly, how many people would dare to choose number 1? Imo, i know myself well enough that i would choose the 2nd option instead. Because i've been somebody who has always been so cowardish/indecisive, so to me taking a passive stand was the best way out. However as i think through it again, indeed i should never have chosen the 2nd option in anything i've dealt w, cos it just shows the cowardly side of my character. It's time for me to learn that running away's never the option/ choice to take :)

Okay, yet another reflective post.
To readers : thr's another post in the other space as well ;)

To love is to love w all your heart, w all your soul, w all your mind & w all your strength.

I realised this space is for my happy thoughts + reflections, &the other space is for my not-so-happy thoughts. &i've been like blogging in both blogs everyday, zai (Y) this means i have been really having superrrrrbly huge emotional rollercoasters.

Anw, i talked to SiHuiJie today (L). She brought me back on track, & taught me so many more things, bringing to my mind the verse above as the subject [not word for word though]. She told me her pov, &i think it's sensible. One hasn't learnt to love if they do not understand that loving means to keep your heart to only one, &to make sacrifices for one another.

Besides that she also taught me that everything must have a closure. Closures & burying things are two completely different issues. &now that a close has been ensured, it'll be great :)

She questioned me about my faith as well. Now within my mind, i'm wondering if i'm willing to commit into this relationship w Him. I have been one who has always been afraid of commitments, because i know fully well that the moment i get into commitments i'll be sunk in, deep. To commit for me, is a lifelong thing. &Therefore i always have like triple, quadruple thoughts about commitments. But anyhow, i've been given time to think. So yes, i shall think. Because He loved me first unconditionally & now it's my decision whether to do so too.

What a reflective post indeed.

&She's right as well, i should not be running away. I have to face everything that comes my way. Because running away merely hides things &does not solve things :)

lovelovelove^^

Specially dedicated to C.

不要放弃拥有快乐的权利,努力去寻找自己的幸福.

omg love this :)

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Chelsia i love your post on your blog! [if thr was a like function, i will like it like 10000000000000000000000000000 times] I'm so sorry i saw it soo late, like 2 days laaaate. Cos apparently i havent been blog hopping much. But anyway, thanks for everything as well. You were amazing and will carry on being amazing. Honestly, idk how i could have gotten past this period without your help, without the help of everybody around. You have been the one who gave me advice when i always seem to be stuck, you have been the one whom i know i'll always be able to trust, &you are gonna be a friend i know i'll never ever forget. Because i know for one thing, that even if anything happens, you'll definitely be thr for me, just like how a true friend will be. (L) I know you have been pretty upset as well, but no worries like you said. Just carry on reading the bible because God works wonders!! PTL!!! ^^ At least that's what you've taught me :) Things keep popping up now &then because of idk what but everything's gonna be okay. I believe you'll be great as well. :*

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH TOO!!!! :) :} :] :D :>

A sense of true distaste.

i think im so dead. i got physics test on Friday, & i havent study. If i fail kena kick out of OGL. sian ttm. & i got homework not done also. wth am i doing online.

Wilson gave me this, niceyyy :)

everything's going to be alright,
tomorrow will be a better day,
tomorrow will be fine.
The birds will sing in major keys,
and their tunes will turn the tides.
Smile, because you know your loved ones are safe and sound;
even when they aren't by your side.
Smile, because you have the ability to feel and love,
Smile, because you know that you are loved.
Smile, because you know that it'll make someone's day brighter,
Smile, because you know you can make the difference.
Things may seem so unfair when it doesn't go your way,
but fret not; cos everything's going to be just fine.
No one knows how long we'll have to wait,
but it'll come.So for now,
smile till time loses its patience and that's when you know it's worth the wait

SHOW LIFE YOU BIGGEST BIGGEST SMILE YO:D

im just tired of this controversy

shifted.
if you're a friend ask me & i'll tell. I'm switching browsers, no more blogger.

The old blog's gonna be locked completely now.

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On second thoughts, i might be posting here still. I still like blogger better. But the other one's gonna remain as a private blog, friends only :)

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it could be a sweet dream, or a beautiful nightmare.

Okay it's gonna be a damn random post here, because it's gonna be my last one in a really long time.

DebraPeh is amusing me like hell lol. She's damn funny omgz. Somehow we were talking about plants. Then i told her a story that someone once told me before, her reaction got me laughing like shiatz in front of the screen. But aint gonna post it here, because it'll show our stupidity.

Today i visited Grandma. I heard my cousin cried, then my heart wrenched daaaamn painfully. She's even yellower, and lost like so much weight. kayz, shant talk bout it.

I skipped cell outing today. Went to study instead. &if i went it'll be pretty weird because it's all guys. & anyway my mother would have murdered me if i went, because i've been playing waaaaay too much.

Keane's getting his promotion results tomorrow. If he's promoted, he's gonna play in the under21 category (Y) My bestiewestie damn zai lol. Hope he's gonna be promoted. Then maybe can help the team. That's the whole reason why i helped anw.

I AM GOING TO DIE LA WAHLAU MY HOMEWORK NOT DONE I AM SCREWED LIKE MAD. IM SO DEAD & ITS LIKE 1120 NOW I AM STILL USING COMPUTER WHAT AM I THINKING. IM EVEN TALKING TO DEBRAPEH ABOUT TOES OMG LOL WTH. TIME TO SLEEP BYE FOR A LONG TIME AFTER THIS.

If being happy's a sin, that's a sin i aint gonna regret.

My feelings &emotions now: happiness/exhaustion/ dilemma

Today was a pretty okay day i guess :)
CCA Orientation mood's sucks again. No atmosphere no nothing, just wanted to see how the girls did. No comments but seriously omg...

Anyway Debra, Chelsia, Sheena &me went back for our batch. Jieting &MinHui as well. But Chelsia's a traitor cos she's in BB uniform hahaha. BB side had alota people back. &They were amusing us quite abit. I think the part after the official orientation when they started jamming was like the best (Y) LOL.

Headed for dinner with the 4Dgb girls :D

Okay, im like damn tired now lol. But i'm like torn apart because i can't decide about Sunday/ tomorrow.
Should i go, should i go??
Tomorrow's an easier choice-dimsum buffet so daaaamn ex lei wahlau. But i feel like going ermerm. Sunday's difficult hahaha. Debra just got so amazed at me.
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#2692, debra:D very very very very heavy eyelids says:
HAHAHAHA
MESSAGE
MESSAGE
MESSAGE
u have to face this sooner or later

audrey hwaiting! says:
i dont feel like touching my phone lei hahaha
DEBRA ARE YOU AMAZED
i acty said that LOL

#2692, debra:D very very very very heavy eyelids says:
HAHAHAHA
OMG WHAT IS WRONG WITH U>?!
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Just now YiYang said he wanted to come &talk kok w me when he saw me in school hahaha. Somehow when he said that i kinda smiled lol. Because it felt good that my old friends acty bothered to find out how im doing :)

feelings are what makes up a person's thoughts.

Such an old photo, but such fond memories :) luvluv.

Today was an awesome day out till night. Supposed to meet Sheena &Vc @eHub's coffee bean, 10. But i forgot to do Sheena's card, so i stayed home to complete it. [My card making skills, still cmi hahaha i need to start buying little decorative materials once in awhile] In the end, i reached 3 hours late lol (Y).

We nua-ed + studied at Coffee Bean's, Chelsia came to join us for awhile before she headed of for onenine chalet. Saw like super alota people at eHub's, tpjc+ahs.

Afterthat vagdaks excluding grace reached, so we headed for nihon mura!! :) Eat, talk, catch-up w one another :] (L). Jervin came to find me midway also, cos he was on the way~~ lol! Anw Grace reached &we went over to some place @downtown's to sit + talk again :}
Headed home after @11.

I'll say it was a simple day, v simple :)
But it's days like these, that make you start to appreciate your friends around you- for what they are, for what they do. Even simple things like coming over to say Hi, to send you a text to tell you what they feel, it makes you feel v much appreciated :B Even though Grace had to head down after her tiring training, she still came &that's one point worth thanking about :>
I really think that i've now changed & become a much better person :D

Tomorrow gonna go back ahs! :) I think thr's gonna be alot of people from my cohort going back as well, ohmy i love the orientation atmosphere.

time washes all emotions away.

This was my test, my experience. But now, it's just a memory.

awesome :)
today i had a gr8 day out. Airport, 18 Chefs after (L). Damn lazy to blog.

Tomorrow another whole day out again, gonna be at downtown ^.^
I really appreciate my friends.

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i was supposed to meet at 10, the time's 12.15 &im still home (Y).
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cuz you'll be my lady

i want to post wedding dress on my blog :B
but then i caaaaaaaan't do copy&paste, wahlaaaaaaaau.
am gonna whine nonstop lol.



omg, i succeeded :D :D :D :D
heheh, taeyang! :B

today i headed to Serangoon around afternoon :)
i dint complete my Maths because i was like so sick of doing McClaurin's in trigonometric functions la omg. Anw, it's the last 2 question alr. Think i'll complete it tomorrow :B Started on Physics like a teensy weensy bit hehheh. i think i lost my efield/ gfield notes, gg. It's somewhere in my cupboard, but which i aint v sure.

Anw, today, i found out things about _____. But i no longer have much link to that person, sad D: so thr's like no one to tell it too. I so kaypoh one laaaaaah lol.

Besides, today's Daddy's bday too :D
Poor daddy dint have his celebration because we're all working/ studying blahcrapz. i feel damn bad la, i think i wanna go get cufflinks for him as a bday gift. But my taste like quite shiatz, dont fit Daddy, hmm. okay, we'll see.

Tomorrow going airport to study!

times like this to be kept close within our heart.

Today was study day with soon, andy &dearie @cathay :)
I cant say it really worked out fine because i only did like 2 questions of Maths before we did story telling, fail :B I gotta make sure i finish Set1 by tomorrow, &start revising at least my physics D:

Anw, after story telling, we went to catch Avatar in 3D! Soon left first. Andy &me dint want to watch it cos the both of us watched it before alr. But deaaaaaaaarie, that tortoise havent &she insisted on catching it heheh. In the end another ten bucks flew away :O &Honestly i think not worth it lo o.o i rather spend the ten bucks on something else, like new clothes!lol.

Headed of for dessert after movie! (Y) intro-ed awesome dessert to andy&jervin lol. but idk whether they like it, hmm... andy&jervin please leave a comment if you think it was good HAHA. Anw, after dessert, headed home :)

I liked today :) Because i caught up with friends i've been missing out on so dearly, &i think i've reached a huge accomplishment. As i thought through what has happened, i think i've really become way more matured emotionally. Those emotional outbursts i've been suffering from tired me out so badly, life was such a drag for me. I know you'll read this, i know you showed your concern through Fiona, i thank you for that. I'll say it frankly here. I havent got over you completely, but at least i aint brooding over what happened anymore. Because i know that thr's no point/purpose of doing so. &So i'm still progressing :) (L) myself sh0oo muchhiiex lol!

Tomorrow will be heading down to Serangoon :] i gonna explore a different route, but i think it's gonna take daaaaaaamn long. kayz, time to charge my ipood hahaha!

today and that day.

Somehow i kinda want to return to countdown party, it feels like thr's so much lesser things to think, to worry, to ponder about. But then again, i want time to fast forward too, weird.
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I headed down to tamp library today w zhiming &we created some shit "on" club crapz. I was laughing so hard, i cried la omgz. &Thr was this pervert that was watching porn in the library lol. &He was shouting vulgarities to scare people away hhahhaa, damn joke. The cleaner even more joke, she was like telling people to be careful but she was cursing away.
Havent been to the library for so long, it feels kinda nice 8) &thanks junh for coming down to help w my maths :D

Zhiming was whining like mad about being 20, every few seconds one f word came out.

Then it striked me quite badly, i'll be 18 this year, & i still look like im 14 lol. fail.
anw the thing is, i've gone through a whopping 18years of my life, half the time i probably dint even know what i was doing. &then this year, i'll be taking that exam which'll determine my footpath in the future, come to think of it, that's hell damn scary.
Idw to screw up this major exam because that'll mean another screwed major exam i've taken, besides O's. But, im afraid i'll take the step i took 2years ago during O's. i remember how dejected that period i was, how absurd it was for me to cry for the first 2-3 weeks of tpjc life. Idw to shift back into that shadow once more, so yes i really have to start working on my academics. No more time for affairs of the heart, just pure A's. That'll be my boyf for this year :)
Then after A's i'll start partying :D omggggggz, 8 months of pure partyinggggggg! caaaant wait!:B

okay, enough of the reflecting. i feel like sleeping :(

tomorrow i'll be hitting the books at Cathay :B [but i think i'll end up having my sinful dessert at plaza's D: come onnnnn, the dessert's (Y) heh.]

i'll go check out a few more vids on wedding dress, i seriously feel like learning the dance omg.

what sets you apart is ultimately your heart.

yesterday's studying drained me out so much, i couldnt do anything today :B i think i've really lost my momentum completely. after doing like 4-5 hours of merely maths ytd i dint even feel like touching my books today, fail much?

went out shopping earlier on :)

was planning on ion/fareast, but in the end headed down to bugis. i dint really expect myself to get anything because i thought it's reaaaaaaaaaally unlikely, but lo &behold i managed to get two items within a time difference of 5-10mins, awesome (Y) :D

i wanted to carry on, but somehow i dint bring enough moolah D: so headed back home after.

sheesh, im kinda getting hooked on "wedding dress" :B

&okay, taeyoung's really kinda good looking now that im observing properly HAHAHAHHAA.

bye :}

a new day, a new year.

mm, first post of 2010. what do i have to say..
i figured that i wanted to post about last night, i wanted to post about today, i wanted to post about my resolutions, i wanted to post like daaaaaaaaaaamn alot of things.
but.. i v lazy :O
&thr're no photos yet. chingying hasnt uploaded so it'll end up being a v dry post if i do post. (wth, im alr posting -.-)

okay, last night was (Y) seriously awesome lol. i was daaaaaamn freaking high like superbly high. the moment i settled down on the seat thr was this inexplicable happiness within me, idk how to say. it's just 'inexplicable'.

then the food came, games started lol. whole library gang sabo-ed each other until only boonkai &junhuang dint go up. chingying &me went up first to do the titanic shitz with some other guys. holy, i was laughing like i had fits la. but my partner was v zai i have to admit, i just kept laughing like mad lol.

before the actual countdown, thr was like some time left so the dj opened up the dance floor lol. funny la, it was supposed to be when 2010 reached. but anw, at that point of time it felt like 2010 was already thr, weird. actual countdown came. &somehow, when we were at the last 5 seconds, thr was this sadness within me. it's like weird... sadness that the year has indeed ended, &that it now opens up a new chapter of our life. hmm..

anw, afterthat the dance floor was opened up again. but this year's was like shiatz compared to last year's. i remember previously that everybody danced till the dj stopped it but this year, it ended before even the scheduled timing. & i was damn high still lol. stupid idiotz made me drink. the trip back i think bk &me were abit crazy or something. we dint seem to be making much sense hahaha.

okay, end of countdown party last night.
if you've made it here, not bad keep reading on lol.

today, i woke up like 11am. it's really late compared to my usual timing because nowadays i keep waking around 9 :o
spent the day at serangoon's.
first time travelling thr, & i did it quite quickly lol. many other routes available but i think the one i took today was the fastest. i've gotta do more exploring in the future. it's like you dk where you're exactly at, but you know wherever you are, you'll be safe. & it opens up my street directory in me hehheh, cool yo :D

okay, im kinda lazy to blog alr. &this post is like so detailed. i havent done sucha detailed one since maybe sec2/3. end post.